The Journey Ends

It is with a heavy heart that I write this news. My wonderful husband and best friend, Dennis, past away yesterday morning. He was a great man who will be truly missed by many. I love you, Dennis, with all my heart. May you now rest in peace.

Stopping Treatment

The latest scan show progression on Inlyta. From the scan report - Dennis' liver demonstrates severe worsening of the mets with innumerable hypodense lesions scattered throughout all segments of the liver. Over the weekend Dennis and I had a discussion about quality over quantity and we were planning on asking the hard questions associated with that decision. When we learned the news of no further treatment being appropriate I was personally relieved the decision of quality over quantity was no longer left to us. We have now been referred to hospice...

We met with the hospice nurse yesterday, made a list of needed supplies, and received those supplies yesterday afternoon. Most are not need at this time, but we will have them available for the future. The nurse talked with the social worker yesterday and he will stop by this morning. I have started the paperwork for FMLA and will take the time when needed.

Surprisingly, I'm keeping it together remarkably well...

Struggling on the inside

I can't help but think about the future. How bad will it get? How much will he suffer?

I hate what this cancer is doing to my husband. He feels crappy. He's unable to get comfortable. He has almost no appetite. He walks slowly to minimize the shortness of breath. It breaks my heart to see him so thin and frail. I wish there was more I could do for him.

Dennis doesn't say much, but I can see a sadness in his eyes. Haylee doesn't talk much about her dad's health because it makes her sad and she doesn't want to cry. I'm strong on the outside, but...

We're all struggling on the inside.